last night

was insane hahah. beer pong was so intense lmao i have bruises
i love niki's house its awesome! we went quad riding at 4 am..
didn't turn out too swell considering we landed in the hospital
ha everythings good tho. i kinda kissed a 21 year old lmao oh well
and slept with him on the couch all night but its all good haha i don't
feel like going into detail

school

schhhhhoooooool is actually pretty descent for right now!
my classes are pretty good and i don't see majority of the people i don't like, score!
my english is interesting with kelsey's bro & drew & chris and joel,bob, taylor .. yah lawlz, julie has spanish with andy lmfao!!! oh you have no idea.. i didn't see julie once today, it sucks since we had so many classes together ALL junior high.. and now none.. me & missy found our own little anti-social bouth in the cafe lmao its pretty sweet... not the people around us tho hahaha long story.. my study hall's huge, gym kinda sucks yeah but for the most part things are going good as of today.

last night of summer

ehh today's the last night of summer..
i wish it wasn't.. this was an UNFORGETABLE summer
sooooooooooooo much stuff happend and i changed sooo much.
it was pretty awesome for the most part.. last night was fun !
i got to see missy i haven't seen her in soo long. we stayed over
christa's and her parents hate me cause i'ma bad influence
and i made a nice appareance with seans loud ass car at 11 pm
ahh that car<3
last night i thought missy went to hug me but she was just petting my hair
hahah it was funny so i hugged her anyways cause i haven't seen her in so long
then she gave me her gift.. its a huge shot glass that will pretty much kill me
the next time we party :D i wish i was partying right now.. we are supposed to be
drinking & smoking but shit came up.. missy still kinda grounded from vacation..
CEDARPOINT is coming soon!! we have our own hotel room! not very smart.. lmao
i'm bringing at least one thhing of vodka <3
lawlz i'ma go peace out my nigga!
*this is what i got back from missy julie & christa from julie's vacation along wth another shot glass lmao.. sasquatch and a stoner

wakey wakey eggs and bakey

haha this is weird.. so when i stayed over sean's last saturday.. it was like 5 am and daniella texted me saying wakey wakey eggs and bakey and i was still up trying to put people to sleep and watch parental control and then at like 10:00am Tim was like wakey wakey eggs and bakey.. haha how retarded and weird is that.

yesterday was horrible

so my dads okay which is good..
i didn't need that shock.. but yesterday
was just a bad day.. that happened with my dad
and now the rest of my summers ruined because
missy & christa got caught drinking on vacation
and THATS HORRIBLE. christa's life is over and
missy's getting her car taken away and cedar point!!
plus her phone and her life i'm sure.. its worse because
missy got caught drinking with me and now christa so
were completely screwed ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

heart attack

i'm going to have a fucking heart attack..
dfjdsklfds my dad got in an accident and
totalled his DUMP TRUCK. idk if hes okay
i haven't found anything out i'm going crazy
i can't take my life. all it is a let down half the time
ds;lafjdskfdsf why me? more like why my family?
wtf did we do to deserve this? we barely make things
threw as it is we can't keep taking all this extra bullshit
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck why can't the hospital just let me know!
dfakdsjfkdasjf fuccccccccccccccccccccccccck

work

so work today was slow as hellllll
so so boring i didn't feel like standing there for 8 hours doing nothing
but then again it gives me less time to screw up.. i did pretty good today
i ate chips & easy mac from the gas station again.

brother

so sunday was my brother's 22 birthday.. it was really hard considering i couldn't spend it with him and i missed his last birthday because i went to a concert or something.. idk i try to block everything out that has to deal with him because its just so freaking hard.. i mean i looked up to him with everything i had.. i spent 15 years at his side following or just hanging out with him.. any time i could get to spend with him i would. my rooms next to his so when i would hear his door i'd go out and try to talk to him or spend time with him and now i can't do that.. i wish he was still here.. and i know it was an accident but my sister doesn't think it was.. i don't know. i feel like i've been in a shell for 15 years and now i'm just coming out realizing so much the past 9 months.. i've learned and been through so much shit its ridiculous. and my familys so screwed up it was nice with him here because he understood like no one else can.. i mean i have 3 sisters but one is prego so shes not around nor do i ever talk to her anyways its always kinda awkward.. the other one is some other country and is staying another year not that i care shes evill.. we don't get a long what so ever. maybe because me and my brother used to torture her when we were little lol. then theres jaxx.. we're close.. she understands our family but its still not the same.. i grew up with my brother and all his friends. i mean i had my own and i was with my sister but being with him always meant more or idk. i have no clue why i'm doing this i don't talk to anyone about my brother its too hard and this isn't even the half of it.. i don't think of that night ever.. it like makes me go insane.. but for his birthday family came over and we had a bonfire.. people were kinda on my nerves.. i had to work earlier and i just didn't want to like celebrate it especially cause we didn't really have anything special when he was here.. my birthday's always missed.. i never get anything my mom doesn't have the money because of the bills are all do right around my bday and my dads a jack ass. this blog makes me sound emo but i'm not.. just getting my frustration out.. yeah and now i'm going to cedar point with missy, julie & christa i mean its going to be a blast i love them so much and we always have fun together so this will def. be an awesome memory but it sucks because my and my brother always planned to go there together and now i kinda feel bad going with out him idk i'm crazy i just don't know anymore